posting photos of my kids

Not a good post tonight. Actually a bit agitated and angry. I'm trying to be nice, but I don't know how far this will go.

I honestly do not care who my ex sees. We are ex's for a reason. I have my love and my future. He can see who he so chooses.

What I can't tolerate is some girl he just met on some dating website meeting my kids and then posting photos of them online!! THAT.. that I can not take!! I don't know her, she doesn't know my kids...and who is to say she doesn't have some pedophile who likes little boys on her page. NO THANK YOU!! Keep photos of MY BOYS off your page. If not, Mama Bear and her claws will come out... and I'm at my point. Hell.. I have told friends not to post photos of my kid's online for that specific reason! And I have reported photos of my kids for that reason on other pages! They are MY kids... they are not their's to share! Bad enough my ex has photos of my kids posted that I can not see. I am scared to know that they are them in bathing suites or such! Too many nut cases out there that enjoy little kids! And so easy to find photos. I keep photos of my babies limited now due to that!!

But anyway...

The boys didn't come in contact with Bryan as a permanent part until it was sure he was just that. Now that we're getting married, he will be around the boys for the rest of their lives! I'm not OK with some girl that may disappear in another month being thrust upon my boys on their VERY LIMITED time with their father. The guy that can barely call the boys! But OK with what limited time he has, to bring some girl he just met to be a part. Why not take time to get to know your kids! Do you know what your son's favorite food is? How about what scares them? Oh, that's right, it's easier to just blame me and say you didn't ask for it! You might not have...but you also haven't taken a single ounce of care to try and be a part of their lives since!! Just doing what your parents think you should. Other wise he would make sure they were not even a part. He already told me he regretted them because they reminded him of me. I don't regret them, even if they were a part of him! He wasn't a good spouse, but I don't blame my boys! Those 2 are my heart and soul... and with their sister.. my world!! Regardless of who their daddy's are... I hate being away from them for a second! And I'm protective.. VERY PROTECTIVE! And unless I know you, don't act like you know my kids!

Even when we were together... he couldn't clean up after them. He locked JD in the pack n play.. while Ptolemy was just a couple months old, so couldn't move! While what.. he played video games. He didn't try picking up or helping... didn't have a job so that wasn't an excuse. Nope. NO excuse.. but I'm the bad guy. But whatever... that's beside the point. Also what negatives happened between us that other's don't know... but I'm the bad guy. Fine! Whatever... but keep my babies out of it! I'll take being the bad guy, if it means they are protected! They do not get some f*&K buddy posting photos of them!!

And with that... Since learning of this... I have worked hard on teaching the boys the importance of good and bad touch. The importance of when someone you don't know comes close and so much else. And JD is quickly learning how to call mommy! I don't know her, I don't know who she knows.. and come hell and high water, I don't trust ANYONE with my boys. And a man that is more concerned with impressing his new girl, will NOT be using my kids as some ploy to look like a good mate. The man who hasn't been around, has very rarely paid for them, and even less has bothered to contact them. Yea. Great father figure there. The Step-father calls from deployments and skypes with them at all hours! Why.. he shows a sign of actually caring!! But 'he's' the bad guy! Screw that! My mood.. very very very annoyed right now! And this mommy's protective claws have come out in super form! And if it continues.. I won't be so nice!


With that.. I sing off. I'm seeing red! Some might thing it's not such a big deal. But I do. This is my kids..who I work hard to protect and I am the one they depend on when things go wrong. When they hurt, they call me. When they fear monsters, they call me in the night! How am I suppose to protect them from the monsters that may occur when they are not with me, when the other person that is *suppose* to protect them... seems to be failing! Their own step dad sees the issue with this, but father.. he could care less. it's his girlfriend!!!!!?????!!!!!


PISSED OFF!!