Typical day of fun...

Things are never dull around here! :) Ptolemy has officially taken to climbing the stairs like a champ! It's just an issue of making him not move the gate to get to them. haha. But the more he is doing, and more vocal he is getting, it seems that JD is getting more involved with him. Some days it is a good thing, sometimes not so much. Today they decided to have a "scream" communication. One would shriek, then the other, and repeat.... IN THE CAR! Oh the fun of that ride. :)

Yesterday we went to Gaga's and Papa's for dinner, and JD took the hose and nailed Gaga. You could so see the little devil glint right as he turned and got her. It was pretty cute.

But overall, the last couple days have been pretty lazy for us. Just adjusting to the heat! So it seems to have made both want earlier mornings, longer afternoon naps, and later bed times. We'll see! Not much to update right now... but I'm sure I'll think of something more. :)

And so it begins...

The official running around has begun!! Ptolemy has just up and walked. Grabbed a hold of the ride-on/walker car....and took it around the living room. He's been using the furniture to get where he wants, but mainly has been using his army crawl since he started months and months ago. Just kind of started the high crawl, but not regular. Well today has been all high crawl and now...we are walking! So, I now have 2 that I will be chasing as they run around the house trying to beat each other up! :)

And as it boys...brothers are definitely brothers!! The bond and understanding must be ingrained when they are born. I was just relaxing and enjoying the boys playing. I look over... Ptolemy grabs JD's golf club and wacks JD upside the head while he was riding on his Mickey plane and leaving him alone, and takes off. Which of course caused retaliation to set in..and JD went and "gave hugs"...which really was wresting Ptolemy to the floor and making him not be able to move. I have to say..it did make me giggle a bit. JD has been a bit brutal with his brother, so to see Ptolemy joining in on the fun. But boy oh boy...these 2 are going to give me gray hair! It will be interesting to see how they both handle their baby sister.

And her.... I am in that paralyzed panic stage. I know I have a ton to do. Need to dig out the bassinet for my room. Ste up the one for the living room, set up her bouncy chair, get out the swing from Ptolemy's room and move it to the living room for her, sterilize bottles (in case I need them), wash her clothes, get her blankets ready, diapers set up...and how about just clean out her room so I have a spot for it all. Add to it... I do not have my hospital bag AT ALL ready!! So she better just wait till her scheduled c/s date. As it is...with that set, I have about 37 days only left!! This has definitely seemed like a long pregnancy..but not long enough. It's sad being my last, and I want to enjoy it. But it's hard to do also with the boys. But at the same time, I can feel myself getting to that stage where I am just READY! I can't wait to look at her. See her face, her eyes, her smile... and to kiss her nose. And to see her with her father. It is going to be the most heart melting moment on earth.

With that said... JD is calling for me from his nap, so it looks like it might be time for us to take our little nightly family walk. The boys and I! <3

How could I forget...

So much updating that I know I need to do...

but I forgot completely...

BOTH my baby boys took 3rd place in their age category for the Beech-Nut Baby contest last August at the Fonda Fair.

Took a detour

Hey all... sorry I took a little detour off my trail, but I am back. :) I had a lot happen in the last year that took me away from the computer and more. But I am back and time to get back to updating and me being me.

Some little updates to start. JD turned 2 this year! Still can't believe my baby is TWO!!! His baby brother, Ptolemy James, was born June 22, 2010! Ptolemy was 8lbs 2oz and born by c-section at 12:25.... and came out screaming like his brother. Both boys have been keeping me on my toes and it has been amazing. <3 I love being a mommy to these two little boys. They are such a blessing!!

After living with my brother for a stint, the boys and I are living in a house that was bought for us by my mom. We moved in here right after Ptolemy was born, and have been renovating and making it HOME!!

Sam and I went our separate ways after a lot of fighting and realizing we just were not meant to be. Took a year of fighting, and finally him ignoring my please for us to seek counceling for me to realize he really didn't care about us as a couple any longer. And I moved on with my life... too bad it took his snooping mother to make him FINALLY realize we had issues. Too bad at that time it was a bit late. And yes... I know she will read this..and I don't care! That is all I will say about any of that.

So the boys and I are doing amazing!! They are growing like crazy.

JD is talking up a storm and such a smart little boy. He can count to 15, recognize most of the alphabet and so much more. He is such a cuddle bug!! He definitely has hit his terrible two stage, but we're working through it! We have a slight issue learning that we don't want to hit our brother, but move away when we get frustrated. He's started working on riding a bicycle, which has been interesting. He loves to get out and go look at animals, climb the ladder to his slide and so much more. I still can't believe how much he has grown!!!

While Ptolemy..he is my little genius!!! He's 11 months, and we are saying "mama, baba, and jjjj (which I think is JD, since it is consistant with him)". He is standing up and trying to walk, but is cruising along the furniture. He has been army crawling since he was about 4 months...and just finally decided to try out the high crawl...but still prefers his old standby. Hey...if something isn't broke, why fix it. He can climb stairs, clap, point when you ask about something. Just a little brainiac...and such a nature lover. I've taken him on a few hikes out in the mountains, and he is soooo observant and studies it all. JD likes to go out and study it all too, but nothing like this little guy.


And the final update in life... I'm currently expecting baby number 3. The final in my little family of 4. AND I am excited to say that the boys will have a little sister!! She is due around the beginning of July. Been so busy with the boys, I haven't had much time to really think about how much my life will change, or has changed. They have kept me sane and have made the worst of this whole thing seem not so bad. As long as I have my babies, I have my whole world!!! I don't need someone that didn't care about me. I can survive..and I have shown I can do that and more!!

Sooo.... I'm back. More regular updates to follow!!

Names

I am just in a mood over names. It seems like nothing is ever right, no one is happy, and everyone has an opinion. (Which really, I don't care about anyway!!)

I'll start with John-Douglas. I don't know what is so damn hard with his name. We have had nothing but trouble with his name since the day he was born!!! His whole first name is John-Douglas (or John Douglas for those that don't like the little -, but that's not the point). What is so hard. STOP calling him John, Johnnie, or any variation there of! Also...he is not John D or such. JOHN-DOUGLAS!!! Or I don't mind JD. That was a nickname my husband and I agreed on LONG before he was born. And he fits a JD. =) So not only do we have people that can't get that part straight...apparently medical records and everything else can't either. Now his birth certificate AND his social security card are correct. (Which if the government can get his SS card right...when they have my wrong birthday...I think anyone can get this..right!?!?) Well, before we had problems with things coming to John D. Fox... and that completely ignored that he DOES HAVE A MIDDLE NAME!! So I told these people that nothing was going to be answered or paid until it was correct. Then I go to the hospital for his heart tests at 6 months and they can't find him. They ask if he was ever there...I told them HE WAS BORN THERE!! So they go on a search..and they have him under Snell! Which is funny, b/c I wasn't even under Snell at the hospital but Snell-Fox...so apparently my son is just another. So after lots of work we finally got all the old doctors and records to be correct. John-Douglas S. Fox. Phew!! THEN we move. Now it is starting all over!! I got his insurance card for NY State and .... you got it...WRONG... John D. Snellfox. Ummmmm...HELLO!?!?! Who the heck do they have working in these offices!!! I filled out the paperwork..I know that I put it in correct. Did some office worker think "This mother must not know how to write their child's name, I'll fix it!?" Ugh. So, trying to get that fixed has been a bitch. I get a new card in the mail...and guess what..wrong again. Oy! Now he's John-Dougla S. Fox. Ummm. we're missing a letter there..but we're closer! I'm just not getting what is so hard with his name! =/

Now before we had him..everyone had an opinion about his name...but overall...it was "ok" with everyone. Well I am sooo glad to have please people. *roll eyes* But now we're going through hell with baby boy #2. We have mentioned names we were considering only to hear: "That name is stupid." "I hate that!" "that is aweful." "He's only going to get picked on." And all those wonderful comments!! You know what..I don't give a crap if you don't like it.. I don't care if you think we're playing favortism to someone..I don't care if you think he is going to hate it... it is HIS name and he is SAM AND MY BABY!! You all had a chance to name your child/ren. (Or you will have a chance.) If you don't like it, or can't adjust..then I am sorry for your naive pettiness. The name will grow on you, I'm sure. So thus, we have come up with a name..no we are not sharing and no we don't want opinions or what you think it should be or how we should change it. We're happy!! We have agreed that this is the name WE FEEL is right...and thus, we know it is the name for OUR son!!

And while I'm on opinions. I don't want anyone's opinion about how I should have my tubes tied or the likes. We may, or we may not, be done with children. But either way, this is a decision between my husband and myself. But thanks for your non-solicited advice!!

Also, I am homeschooling. We have ageed on this before JD...and no one has since changed our minds. If anything, you all have cemented it. So stop telling us about how a certain name will effect the boys in school. B/c I'm sure the names the other student(s) in THEIR class will be calling them..won't amount to picking..more like a bunch of brotherly play!

Ok...I think that was my rant for today. LOL. I'm a mom..I'm protective of both my sons, and my husband, and when I get some of these comments or mistakes..I can't help but get some fur raised. But I'm better now. =)

updating

Ok. So I said I would update, since the last was put up for Halloween!! Wow has a ton happened since then!!!

In November, Sam was let go from his job and we had to move from our apartment in MA. We currently are staying with family while he looks for another job, and we can find our own place again. We are sooo ready to be out of here and back into our own place. Not that it hasn't been nice of my brother to let us live here, we just would love to have more space, our own stuff and JD to have his own room back!

We also found out last October we were expecting!! At the time we were excited even though we felt it was a bit early with JD being young. Now we're excited still, but worried b/c of the job situation. But let's hope that's all taken care of before June. Our estimated due date is June 20th, but I am set for a scheduled repeat c-section...so we're looking around June 14th. We just found out 2 weeks ago that we are having another baby boy. So JD and his baby brother will be about 15 months apart, and I'm sure they will be the best of buds. :-D

JD had his first Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years! All were a ton of fun, and we have loads of pictures to remember it all.

JD had his FIRST birthday on Feb. 11th!!! I'm still in utter shock that he is ONE!! Where has the time gone, and where is my baby boy!! He has grown up SOOOO much too!! He is starting to chatter, trying to walk, and def into everything! We had a small family birthday party for him at the church. I did a Nemo theme, and JD seemed to be totally in love with it! I'll have to post some of the pictures. I made his cake, and my mom helped with decorating and getting the food ready.

So I think that is everything right now. A lot of changes, but nothing with a lot of info behind it. LOL. I'll have to get back to posting more. B/c I know I've missed a lot of the key JD moments!

A long vent

I know I have A TON to update to make some of this make sense..but I just need to get this out now.

I am probably just in a mood. But who knows. I'm so upset, so agitated, anxious and FRUSTRATED!! gaah.gif I'll appologize now..b/c I know this is going to be long and maybe a bit bouncy...starting with baby stuff and who knows where it will end. :(

I had a check-up with my OB today, and I feel like he just seriously doesn't care. gaah.gif Now, I guess I should expect some flippansy since it is a clinc type setting b/c I have medicaid right now with Sam not having a job. (Another vent in itself!) But I seriously feel like nothing is being checked. I honestly feel like there is no difference then if I just sat home until the end regardless.

I went today, and was in the office for over an hour..but spent all of 2 minutes with the doctor. He didn't check the baby, didn't ask me anything. When I mentioned some of my concerns..he just kind of brushed them aside. Told me I was pretty much paranoid. :(

I've been having some very strong pain on my left side (and we're talking..intense and crying pain even when I'm sitting still) for the last couple of days, and yesterday/this morning had a lot of extra fluid leaking. Brought it up to him and without even letting me finish explaining, said I probably pulled the round ligament and I'm peeing myself!! I mentioned the contractions..and was told...IT'S TOO EARLY!!! gaah.gif Has he NOT looked at my chart!!! With JD they stopped my labor starting at 25 weeks!!

And then there is THAT!! We have a MAJOR disagreement about dates. To some 7 days is not much..but in terms of needing a c/s and a history of pre-term..I think that is A LOT. He is basing the dates off an early u/s that was done when I lost the twin...which of course was measuring a bit behind. I tell him that I don't agree with the dates..and he said HE IS THE DOCTOR and he believes the u/s. Well...that's fine.... know I didn't get a degree in OB...but I didn't KNOW YOU COULD GET A POSITIVE PG TEST THE DAY YOU CONCEIVE!!!! gaah.gif Add to it all my u/s now the baby is measuring a couple days ahead of MY stated due date. If the baby is supposedly a week behind that..then this baby is measuring almost 2 weeks early. Shouldn't that be a concern too!!

I'm just sooo upset over all of this. I want to enjoy the pregnancy..but how can I when I feel like it's not being monitored correctly. We know I have a history of cervical issues and JD started to come within the next couple weeks. So how can he just be so flippant about the contractions, pain and such. I know each pregnancy is different....but come on!!! It just makes me totally miss my old ob. He was soooo great!! He even called when I wasn't going into the office to see how things were going with THIS PG. I am just sooo glad I had him for JD's pregnancy..b/c I can only imagine what could have happened to him if I hadn't!!! :crying

Add to all of this. I'm just soooo frustrated with Sam not having a job and having a family of 3 living out of a room. He has put in a GRAND TOTAL of 2 applications since he got let go in November. TWO!?!?! He put in one, didn't get it. Then this new one appeared..and he put in for it. I can only PRAY he gets it. B/c I don't know what we will do. It really adds to the stress with not knowing. Unemployment runs out in June, when this baby is due! If he does get this job..then we need to find a place near it, move...etc. And it starts in May. Not the best of timing. And Sam just doesn't seem to get why I'm soooooo frustrated!!

Can I please cry and curl up in a ball somewhere and just get lost for a bit!! I'm in pain, I'm upset, frustrated, and I feel like I have no where/no one to turn to!! :crying